WHAT DO I FEEL!

doesn't know why i'm  feel unhappy about it!

maybe it because i don't know how do communicate with you or he/she!

every times,when you all spoke happily,

i always will go somewhere to not listen or i can't connect with you!

i'm the special one who always cannot get on well with your!

and i always feel i the person who is useless and always bother and make you all get trouble and problem!

i always hope i could get on well with you,

but i can't!

the problem not i'm not going to try,

it because i'd try before and experience!

however how i try,

also could not be success!

i feel tired already!

and i also know if i keep doing like that!

one day i will be lonely and alone!

but what could i do!

i feel tired already to force myself to do it!

and i also know if i force myself also no use!

because i'm not you!

Feeling...

i should happy or not,
i also don't know!

On Wednesday that day i get my college sem 1 result!
when i said my result,
i's surprise that my result was very different with what i think before!
i get my  CPGA 2.8472!

But didn't know why that i 'm not happy at it!
maybe i it because i have fail my "building material" paper,
and didn't get A for my math for construction!
for my building material i only get c- that mean i have resit!
i didn't know only few mark that i will pass,but i also can't get it!
maybe i didn't study hard at that time!
and i only know that i can help other people in building material
but can't help myself!
math for construction,
i think i also do the same mistake!

but i very happy that my other subject i pass!
and i get:1A,1B+,1B,3C+,1C-
and my CPGA i get 2.8472
(that is what i surprise,cause i also scare i can't get more than 2.0)hahaXD

And one more think i know is,
i'm the lastly in all my friend!
all my friend who always with me,
they CPGA get more than 3.0!
that only me who get less than 3.0!
hahaha...

so i also don't know what should i feel already!XD
i should happy.....
or i should sad.....
i didn't know!
and i feel so pressure in the class!
all my frind could understand what lecture or tutorial said,
look like only me feel blur!XDhahaha

life

朋友

对每个人来说，这个字眼很熟吧！
肯定每个人都懂它是什么意思！

在很久以前，这个字对我来说可以说有也可以说没有！
因为以前，我是活孤独的和不懂自己在做些什么的世界里！
而且，觉得有没有我都可以！
活在一个比较的世界里！
多年来都是将！

可是因为这个，我改变了！
我认识到一般好朋友！
不管开心，伤心，悲哀...
都关心我的人！
而且，在他们身上我学到很多东西！
他们告诉我做人就是要开心！
不要因为以前而影响现在！
人是要往前看的！

我还记得，
在大考前，一直觉得自己没办法做好！
而被“他”骂了一番！
因为他的“骂”我醒了！
可是到了大考，我紧我全力去做了！
可是还是觉得自己没办法做到最好！
到了这次，他并没有骂我！
反而对我说了一番话，
世界上没有人是完美的，
每的人都有缺点！
总之做好自己就好了！
因为有了他这句，我放心很多！

其实我觉得比较惊喜的是他答我的那一句话，
我曾经问他的：你为什么要将帮我？
他给我的答案是：
“因为是朋友嘛！
而且，我也不想看到你愁眉苦脸的样子！
我比较想看到你开心的样子”
听到这句，我都傻了！而且还笑了出来！

朋友，如果没有你们，就没有现在的我！
朋友，如果没有认识到你们，我现在还是很孤独！
朋友，如果没有你们，我永远走不出我自己的那关！
朋友，谢谢你们一直以来的教诲，关心......
朋友，谢谢你，我永远爱你们！